Like a drum, my heart never stops beating for you, for you. Baby, I’m not moving on. I’ll love you long after you’re gone. — Phillips Phillips - Gone Gone Gone
yes to all the above.
In this crazy world of choices, I’ve only got a few. Either you’re coming with me or I’m coming with you ‘cause I finally found, I finally found you — Enrique Iglesias - Finally Found You
I was always under the impression that my dad left me when I was younger. It wasn’t until I was 19 that I realized it was a lot more complicated than that. For most of my life, I had the fear of people leaving me because I felt the void of my dad not being there. As a defense mechanism, I wanted to leave people before they had a chance to get rid of me. On the one hand, I desperately want to hang on to them. On the other, I can’t wait to get rid of the person because I don’t want to feel that sense of attachment anymore. This explains a lot of my relationships with people or maybe I just try to make it relevant.
I find myself at that crossroad now. I’m forever looking for a reason to let someone go. I want that detachment.
Life is too short to be unhappy. During these past couple of weeks, there’s been a lot to be sad about. With finals coming up, it’s even harder to focus on doing what I need to do when all I can think about are the things going on around me. I’ve been trying to be optimistic but every day it’s a struggle when all I want to do is crawl into a ball. Lucky for me, I count my blessings by appreciating the moments I share with people.
Example 1. One day, I was extremely upset about how the past couple of days had been going. It seemed as if nothing was going right and I couldn’t do anything about it. I decided to go run with my friend because running always makes me feel better. Before we ran, my friend said, “Let’s not talk about anything depressing. This is going to be a happy run.” I thought, I don’t know if I can do that. I was so bogged down with all these thoughts. She could tell I was troubled by this proposition because I was looking so pensive. I wanted to tell her about my friend who had passed away and how my friends were fighting and that they were taking it out on me… and she just looked at me and said, “No depressing stories.” I smiled and nodded. We had a nice run where we talked about the weather and boats, what we were like as kids, nature… It was really fun. The day ended on a very good note. I was no longer weighted down by all the things that had been bothering me. Sometimes in life, that’s all you need - to just not talk about it.
Example 2. I was in the middle of an argument with a friend and it was extremely upsetting. It had already been an exhausting day and I didn’t know what else I could say to make the situation better. We left dinner with the tension still between us. I knew we weren’t comfortable ending it like that, so we went into CVS. I decided to tell her a funny story because I saw cranberry juice. We ended up walking around the store for a long time sharing funny stories about our pasts. When the laughter died down, she said, “I’m really glad we’re friends.” It made me feel so much better. Granted the problem wasn’t resolved but sometimes it doesn’t have to be. It’s more important to me to be reminded of why I’m friends with someone than to settle whether something is right or wrong. Imagine if we lived in a world isolated from all of its complications. You know those claw machine games? Pull yourself out of that mess and allow yourself to be suspended above everything. Wouldn’t life just be easier that way, to continue pulling yourself out of the chaos?
Example 3. I keep reminding myself of all the good things. I look at myself in the mirror and realize that I’m young and healthy. I am so grateful for that.
For me, the root of the meaning of life is finding happiness because it’s so elusive. For ages, philosophers, thinkers, spiritual leaders, humanity has come to realize that regardless of how you get there it’s about the perception of happiness from the individual. Happiness comes from within and in order to live a happy life it takes practice. I’m learning and practicing happiness everyday.
Well you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
i ran through a swarm of flies and reacted like this
God bless The Notebook. It introduced me to one of the great loves of my life. But people do Rachel and me a disservice by assuming we were anything like the people in that movie. Rachel and my love story is a hell of a lot more romantic than that. — Ryan Gosling, why are you so amazing? What’s more romantic than The Notebook??